GiN&JUiCE

friends only.

Tue, 30 Mar 2004 21:04:50 GMT

....you know what to do....

i love chinese food!

Thu, 25 Mar 2004 01:37:08 GMT

the past few days have been kinda sucky. ive just been resting and shit and doing nothing.i got my photo project done...so thats good. im confident i can bring my grade up in spanish within the next 2 weeks. lol. i love alex i finally saw him today. i havent seen him in almost 3 days. trust me thats a lot since ive been seeing him like every day. and i miss kellie too i dont get to see her much but this weekend i will and spring break is in a week! and yeah i cant wait for spring break someone is coming to visit me! yay and no school and i can see everyone i want. im also seeing incubus, my mommys letting me take the ferry and the bus and all that good shit into the city. so yeah if u wanna come let me know cuz im getting my tickets this saturday. =D on fri i wanna see taking lives so bad. tomorrow i think ill stay home just to sleep and rest. booya!i love the smell of cement glue so much its not even funny!

"im in love and always will be"dido

Mon, 22 Mar 2004 21:45:03 GMT

today wuz a decent day. i need to make my vagina model. i got an 80 on my spanish quiz. i have to study for like 2 tests tommorrow. and i need to sleep. last night i went to the movies with alex and his friends and saw dawn of the dead again. i really wanna see taking lives.here's a random quiz.
Check (x) the ones that are true...
(_) I NEVER HAVE SMOKED POT
(_) I NEVER HAVE KISSED A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX
(_) I NEVER HAVE KISSED A MEMBER OF THE SAME SEX
(x) I NEVER CRASHED A FRIEND'S CAR
(x) I NEVER BEEN TO JAPAN
(_) I NEVER RODE IN A TAXI
(_) I NEVER HAD ANAL SEX
(_) I NEVER HAVE BEEN IN LOVE
(_) I NEVER HAD SEX
(x) I NEVER HAVE HAD SEX IN PUBLIC
(_) I NEVER HAVE BEEN DUMPED
(_) I NEVER SHOPLIFTED
(x) I NEVER HAVE BEEN FIRED
(_) I NEVER BEEN IN A FIST FIGHT
(_) I NEVER HAD A THREESOME
(_) I NEVER SNUCK OUT OF MY PARENT'S HOUSE
(_) I NEVER BEEN TIED UP (SEXUALLY)
(x) I NEVER BEEN CAUGHT MASTURBATING
(_) I NEVER PISSED ON MYSELF
(_) I NEVER HAD SEX WITH A MEMBER OF THE SAME SEX
(_) I NEVER BEEN ARRESTED
(_) I NEVER MADE OUT WITH A STRANGER
(x) I NEVER STOLE SOMETHING FROM MY JOB
(_) I NEVER CELEBRATED NEW YEARS IN TIME SQUARE
(x) I NEVER WENT ON A BLIND DATE
(_) I NEVER LIED TO A FRIEND
(_) I NEVER HAD A CRUSH ON A TEACHER
(x) I NEVER CELEBRATED MARDI-GRAS IN NEW ORLEANS
(x) I NEVER BEEN TO EUROPE
(_) I NEVER SKIPPED SCHOOL
(x) I NEVER SLEPT WITH A CO-WORKER
(_) I NEVER CUT MYSELF ON PURPOSE
(x) I NEVER HAD SEX AT THE OFFICE
(x) I'VE NEVER BEEN MARRIED
(x) I'VE NEVER BEEN DIVORCED
(_) I NEVER HAD SEX WITH MORE THAN ONE PERSON WITHIN THE SAME WEEK
(_) I NEVER HAVE POSED NUDE
(x) I NEVER GOT SOMEONE DRUNK JUST TO HAVE SEX WITH THEM
(x) I NEVER HAD SEX WITH MORE THAN ONE PERSON WITHIN 24 HOURS
(x) I NEVER HAD SEX WITH SOMEONE WHO'S NAME I DID NOT KNOW

my stomach is a bitch

Sun, 21 Mar 2004 17:36:29 GMT

lets see friday i went to the dentist to get my retainers. theyre ok i guess ive had retainers b4. then i went shopping and went to the movies with vic tommy allan and this girl anna.thr ewata theatre wuz sold out so we went to wendys and then to rp theatres. we saw dawn of the dead but omg it wuz so ghetto. we had to stand in the back because there were only 3 more seats left and they werent next to eachother. so me and vic sat on a garbage can. honestly i thought the movie wuz gonna suck major cock but i liked it. it wuz pritty good. then yesterday i went to alexs for like 4 hours and came home to get ready then we picked up alex cuz it wuz raining and we went to jessicas party. it wuz pritty cool.then me and alex left and went to his friends house for this kegger. $5 and all u can drink. i got pritty fucked up. i lost count of how many drinks i had after number 10 lol and i remember i played beer pong. i actually got one or two of the balls in. yay lol. anyway my phone is fucked up an du cant see the screen its all white. blah wutever then i got home around 1 and now i feel like shit.

today i am doing nothing. lol

I WANT IT TO SNOW!

Fri, 19 Mar 2004 04:19:27 GMT

so today is thursday...hmm i cant remember school that much. o yeah i have a scar on my finger and thumb from when i burnt it durring that thing for photo. i lost feeling in my one finger.o well. i went home and did nothing and theeeeeennnnn alex came over and met my psycho mommmy. haha. and then lawton came and we went to the talent show with amelia. it sucked major ass...but mr d wuz good and so wuz the 2nd band.....and we just hung out in leonia cuz that town sux. today wuz a good day = )

Wed, 17 Mar 2004 14:51:00 GMT

HAPPY ONE MONTH BABY ! =D

he best run and hide

Wed, 17 Mar 2004 01:55:45 GMT

today wuz bleh. i feel like ive been laking hanging out with my friends. its like i hang out with the same people, dont get out enuff, sleep, or do nothing or our plans r so diff that i havent seen alot of people in awhile =( blah schedules and busyness sucks ass. tommorrow is national drunk day. woo hoo. i have a surprise for alex for our 1 month. but yeah yum yum yum. i feel like shit kinda today. i bought pritty mascara...red =) yay. wutever im feeling blah right now.

purple nails!

Mon, 15 Mar 2004 02:36:58 GMT

this weekend wuz pritty cool. spent lots of time with alex, hung out, shows, drank it up, hung out sum more. barely got sleep but hey wuts new.

lyrics time! hoobastank-the reason

I'm not a perfect person,
As many things I wish I didn't do,
But I continue learning,
I never meant to do those things to you,
And so I have to say before I go,
That I just want you to know.
I've found a reason for me,
To change who I used to be,
A reason to start over new,
and the reason is you.
I'm sorry that I hurt you,
It's something I must live with everyday,
And all the pain I put you through,
I wish that I could take it all away,
And be the one who catches all your tears,
Thats why I need you to hear.
I've found a resaon for me,
To change who I used to be,
A reason to start over new,
and the reason is You
I'm not a perfect person,
I never meant to do those things to you,
And so I have to say before I go,
That I just want you to know.
I've found a reason for me,
To change who I used to be,
A reason to start over new,
and the reason is you.
I've found a reason to show,
A side of me you didn't know,
A reason for all that I do,
And the reason is you.

hungry

Sat, 13 Mar 2004 05:08:13 GMT

so today wuz a crazy day. school wuz ehh cuz i had to present my project, which wuz ok i guess.i went to johns after school. hung out with him which wuz cool cuz we havent really hung out besides that show last week. then tommy came. john left to go to therapy so i went with his cousin to get 151 for stacie. then i wuz stranded in front of johns house. i wuz so cold. i ended up going to tommys and chilling there. vic wuz gonna give me a ride but 5 mins turned into like 45. i went to meet up with stacie and amy. long story short i missed my taxi to alexs house. i froze my ass off for like 1 hour waiting for it. i waited another 30 mins for a new one. which sucked ass. but then i finally got to my babys. we watched movies and hung out and the rest u can imagine. haha. but yeah tommorrow im gonna get drunk hopefully for the last time....for awhile lol.i think i should stop. anyway i wuz like 3 hours late to alexs which sucked but i wuz still there for like 4 hours = ) it felt so good to just finally see him. but yeah people r weird. i dunno y but arg people just piss me off but hey thats life....i hate it when people hide shit from me. blah. anyway. if i dwell on this shit then ill pass by good stuff.

Fri, 12 Mar 2004 04:03:19 GMT

I LOVE MY ALEX!

yummy yum yumm

Sun, 07 Mar 2004 19:25:22 GMT

hmm ill do a recap of my weekend. friday after school i hung out with amelia for a bit. i havent seen her in a long time. i went to alexs and hung out there then we went to this kid mikes house and there wuz a 'party' there. yeah so i got pritty fucked up. i didnt even drink that much of the bottle i bought cuz i downed like 1/4 of it and my stomach started going psycho. so then i got home pritty late.cuz me and alex ended up going back to his house..instead of 5 mins it turned to like 1 1/2 hours lol. so then yesterday i woke up and went to a show with kellie. it wuz fun. alot of my friends and people i knew were there. it wuz great i almost died cuz durring the mosh on the stage people fell on me and i almost knocked over a speaker. which almost fell on me but kellie pulled me out of the way cuz it wuz gonna fall on my head and then no more dez!but anyway today i woked up and talked to my alex for a bit and i have to go work on a project soon which i dont wanna. hopefully ill see my little baby soon lol anyway....

"my mother shes a honky and my dad hes kentucky fried!!!!!!!!!!!!"

booya

Fri, 05 Mar 2004 02:41:02 GMT

i just died my hair again. testing wuz fucking easy as fuck. muahaha. i cant wait to do that fire thing in school, im gonna have so much fun. hopefully ill be allowed to set some people on fire, oh do i have someone in mind. =D anyway...i picked up a casualties cd. pritty fucking good and it wuz cheap so yay! and uhh yeah i got my teeth cleaned today. i bled so much tho cuz my mouths still sensitive from my braces.it sux but its all good. i miss my alex =( i think im gonna be seeing him tommorrow after school or sumthing.i think im getting sumthing done on saturday! i hope i hope cuz i have the money! and then i htink im getting FUCKED UP and going to a show. fun fun fun. and sunday i have a project...so wooo go me = )

muahahaha.

Wed, 03 Mar 2004 01:46:50 GMT

woo hoo i have testing tommorrow. oh so much fun. i need to redye my hair. i got my braces off yesterday, i actually miss them! i feel like i dont have anything in my mouth lol. err i wanna see slipknot. this sat i may be getting fucked up and going to a show. but i duno if i wanna waste my money. blah. i have to do a project for coleman, oh yay. haha. yeah im bored, all i did today wuz sleep sleep sleep. yay sleep!

LMFAO these quizes are funny as fuck

How WHITE are you?

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How SLUTTY are you?

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aww = )

Tue, 02 Mar 2004 02:48:07 GMT

♥Killxavril and ♥Dead_inside420

Will adopt all Elven kids.
Intend to listen to music together when permitted.
Are so cute.
Have the best sex ever.

Orchestrated by ianiceboy

you lost your throne

Mon, 01 Mar 2004 04:20:38 GMT

ild just like to say that this is the first weekend since halloween that ive been sober!!. im so proud of myself.

JUST LOCK THE DOOR AND FIND SOME TIME TO SCREAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!

Sun, 29 Feb 2004 18:52:47 GMT

hmm ok....i feel weird right about now. sometimes when u see something that will make u jealous and u get a weird feeling in ur stomach thats when u realize you still care about something or someone....but in a friend way. but i thought that feeling went away.

wutever im happy. ive been spending alot of time with my alex and its been good = ) and i been hanging out with people and its been fun fun fun. i need to buy my ozzfest ticket.

i need to do my coleman project and do my pictures.i wish i could kill certain people right now and i kinda wish i wuz dying tommorrow so i can tell everyone everything ive ever thought of or felt or wut i ever thought of them. blah. i hate drama. i hate feelings. i hate school. i hate liars. i hate not being in someones life and being a part of it and just...everything.

sometimes i wish i wuz like that girl lucy in 50 first dates. i can wake up and forget everything from the day b4. but i wish i had the power to decide wut i can and can not remember.so i can still remember the good things...

im dead

Sun, 29 Feb 2004 09:14:45 GMT

i feel so tired
i feel stressed
i feel in love
i feel the love
i feel like a bum
i feel like having sex
i feel like i should be drunk right now
i feel like i need money
i feel stupid
i feel like murdering someone (wut else is new?)
i feel like i need to go to shows
i feel like buying tickets to 3 shows i wanna go to and tell my mom later on...so she will pay anyway
i feel hot
i feel like i should be dead
i feel dead
i feel lazy
i feel like i should be lazy

"drink dirty martinis, not dirty vodka"

back to school.(good deftones song too lol)

Tue, 24 Feb 2004 01:41:11 GMT

(i got this from laina)
RULES:
1. Put your birth month in an entry.
2. Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.
3. Bold the four that best apply to you.

~~Stubborn~~ and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. ~~Quiet unless excited or tensed~~. ~~Rather reserved.~~ ~~Highly attentive.~~ Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. ~~Loves children.~~ Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. ~~Very stubborn and money cautious.~~

school sucked. wut else is new, i planned on coming home and sleeping. people liked my hair alot, yay!alex didnt go to work cuz he wanted to see me. so of course i fought with my mom for like 30 mins to let me out. she doesnt trust me, blah fuck you. its so stupid of wut i 'lied to her about'. asshole. anyway. i went to target to exchange the ink for the old computer and i missed the bus to alex's. but then i went to coconuts and hung out with vic. i picked up a cd and another new alochol keychain. hahaha. yeah so we hung out and stopped at my house and shit. then drove around and wut not. haha. yeah hes cool and funny. then i went to alexs and hung out there for a few hours. =D but then i had to come home =( i didnt wanna leave him. but now here i am dead tired.

before:

.....

after:

haha this is sadly not me.Aquarius Drinking style:
Aquarius and drinking don't go together that well
(except for water, that is). They have an
innate tendency toward know-it-allism, and if
they get an idea while sizzled, they're more
stubborn than a stain or a stone. If they're
throwing a party or organizing an outing,
however, they're too preoccupied with their
duties to get combative -- and they make
perfectly charming drunks in that case.
Fortunately, they're usually capital
drink-nursers. They also make the
best-designated drivers (if you can get them
before they start raising their wrist):
Aquarius is fascinated by drunken people and
capable of holding interesting conversations
with soused strangers while sober.

Alcohoroscopes- what do the stars say about your drinking style
brought to you by Quizilla

..i think i fit more into a scorpio kind of drinking style:
Scorpio Drinking style: Don't ever tell Scorpios they've had enough, for they'll smirk at you and quietly but intentionally keep tippling till they're hog whimpering drunk, out of 100-proof spite. Scorpios like to drink, and screw you if you have a problem with that. Most of them see the sauce as something to savor in itself, and not as a personality-altering tool -- though if depressed, self-loathing Scorps seek total obliteration. But generally, they're fascinating drinking pals, brilliant conversationalists and dizzying flirts. They also remember everything -- especially what you did when you were blitzed. Only drink with a Scorpio who likes you.

jesus fucking christ...

Sun, 22 Feb 2004 03:56:08 GMT

wow this week...winter break or wutever its called wuz FUCKING AWESOME.wow yeah i got fucking amazing memories. ok i feel like a hypocrite for sumthing, but it wuz my first and last time. and omg yeah. i decided awhile ago that ild slowly try every drug that exists ONLY ONCE. cuz yeah..u know since im such a little angel MUAHAHHAHA. just kidding but yeah only once. but last night/yesterday i went on the greatest fucking trip ever. HAHAHA yeah it wuz fucking crazy, dude i wuz on the moon.

but anyway. i have to do sum project thing...yeah im a lazy bitch who saved everything for last. but o well.

<3 alex <3

= )

Thu, 19 Feb 2004 07:24:08 GMT

im happy. woo hoo. today kinda sucked cuz my mom wuz being a bitch. but me and alex went out to dinner = D hes so sweet. and it wuz cute. he bought me a sublime video, so now i have 2! then we met up with jesi and amanda. hung out in barnes and noble. then we went back to his house, and his mom gave me liquor. haha. then i came home a little bit ago.

but yeah today wuz cool = )

lyrics time! this song makes me think of some asshole but i dunno hes cool and i still love the kid. incubus-mexico

You could see me reaching,
So why couldn’t you have met me halfway
You could see me bleeding
And you could not put pressure on the wound....

You only think about yourself.
You only think about yourself.
You’d better bend before I go...
On the first train to Mexico....(ohhh)

You could see me breathing
But you still kept your hand over my mouth....
You could feel me seething
But you just turned your nose up in the air....(ohh)

You only think about yourself.
You only think about yourself...
You’d better bend before I go
On the first train to Mexico.....(ohh)

You only think about yourself.
You only think about yourself...
You’d better bend before I go
On the first train to Mexico.....(ohh)

Mon, 16 Feb 2004 20:06:17 GMT

yo the past few days have been fucking CRAZY. good crazy shit. i love it. <3

i need to take a shower cuz i havent been home in a long time. haha.

feeling like shit.

Sat, 14 Feb 2004 17:51:24 GMT

i dont like this band but this song is good...'figured you out'
i like your pants around your feet
i like the dirt thats on your knees
i like the way you still say please
while your looking up at me
your like my faviourite damn disease

i love the places that we go
i love the people that you know
i love the way you cant say no
too many long nights in a row
i love the powder on your nose

and now i know who you are
it wasnt that hard
just to figure u out

and now i know who you are
it wasnt that hard
just to figure u out

i like the freecles on ur chest
i liket he way u like me best
i like the way ur not impressed
while u put me to the test
i like the wine stains on ur dress
i love the way u pass the cheque
i love the good times that u reck
i love your lack of self respect
when youre past out on the deck
i love my hands around ur neck

now i know who you are
it wasnt that hard
just to figure u out

and now i know who you are
it wasnt that hard
just to figure u out

i like your pants around your feet
i like the dirt thats on your knees
i like the way you still say please
while your looking up at me
your like my faviourite damn disease

and i hate the places that we go
i hate the people that you know
i hate the way you cant say no
too many long nights in a row
i hate the powder on your nose

blah.

Sat, 14 Feb 2004 03:40:47 GMT

the pictures.
these r pics i took with my phone camera thing.

thats my shotglass. =D every alcoholic has one, 'i Like to get drunk and hump things'

me using alex's phone--this is like 1 month old...and uhh wow my nose looks big haha

jose and ariel...how cute!

alex smoking it up. haha

(from left to right) jessi, amanda and jenny!

MJ and Lawton!

Amanda and Kellie!

Lawton smoking..

Alex with is Jew-fro and me...(this is from tonight) we looked fucked upppp haha

same as above! =D

today wuz ok. hooker boots rule. i met vanessa, shes hot and cool. lol. and uhh i went to alex's and hung out did the usual. came home. my moms a bitch. tommorrow i may begoing to the city and than a show. but if i go to the city than i wont see alex and i have to give him his yummy present.so i dunno wuts up. than im supposed to be going to marias party. which i wanna go to so bad! last week wuz fun and i miss that girl. and err oh yeah someone told me sumthing amazing today, HAHAHA EVERYONE HATES YOU! im 16 not 6 and im not gonna be insecure like a *someone* and try to make someone feel like shit so i can feel like some fucking god like i rule the world. but haha yeah this thing wuz good, i cant wait. muahahahhaha....PAYBACK'S A BITCH!

anyway..im really confused on love. i just...dont know wut to do...

fuck yeahhhhhhhhhhhh

Thu, 12 Feb 2004 21:26:15 GMT

alex sent me the warped 04 lineup. its fucking amazing but at the same time theres some shitty fucking bands that i should murder. *muahahaha*
(the bold ones i wanna see like crazy)

New Found Glory, Good Charlotte, Coheed & Cambria, Taking Back Sunday(they sucked last yr so i dont give a fuck about them), Flogging Molly, Anti Flag, Boucing Souls, Bad Religion, NOFX, Yellowcard, Story Of The Year, Atmosphere, Sugarcult, International Noise Conspiracy, Tiger Army, Lars Frederickson, < b>Rise Against, The Casualties, Rufio,</b> Allister, Billy Talent, Sahara Hot Nights, Guttermouth--even tho i allready did..yay!, Peper, Fall Out Boy, The Briggs, Washington Social Club, Alexis On Fire, Letter Kills, The Kinison, Rose Hill Drive, FATA-I THINK I JUST CREAMED MY PANTIES AHHHHHHHHHH FATA! lol =D

i should muder GC since the first warped i went to, i fucking almost died in their so called 'pit', and nfg just needs to be shot.Û

Thu, 12 Feb 2004 12:46:56 GMT

ild just like to say that some people r fucking disgusting and realy fucking ugly ON THE INSIDE and by their actions it shows on the outside. you are one fucked up bitch.

i just HAD to say that. and now after like 2 days of being absent im back in school. great. sarcasisim. im gonna have to make up alot of work, yay go me.

i also love the effect i have on people. *evil grin*